This post is dedicated to a guy, a guy who has been by my side during my worst times, a guy who's my teacher, my rival, my source of confidence, my best friend, my partner and most of all, my brother. THANK YOU GERALD!!!

I realize that he has been really nice to me. He's always helped me, taught me all I knew about playing the flute and piccolo, taught me a whole lot about music, opened my eyes to new perspectives, advised me on a lot of stuff, gave me utmost confidence, made me laugh, trusted me and always ready to lend me a willing ear.

No words can do justice to the help, care, friendship, confidence and brotherly love that you have given me since I joined band. Seriously Gerald...you rock! All that you have done for me is greatly appreciated.

I feel like I'm owing you...but I don't know how to pay you back. But I know that if you need something, I will try my best to give it to you. You mean a lot to me, bro. I would be very sad if you leave me, but that day has to come sooner or later. I truly appreciate the times we spend together. I hope the feeling is mutual.

Till next time, from your loving sister 11:11 PM

My God. The weather is so freakin' hot man. HAHA! No, I'm not talking about some guy. Hot guys are rare around these areas. Most hot guys are only found behind screens. And those type are un-touchable.

Ok, I did not write this post to talk about hot guys. I just noticed that a friend of mine has updated her blog so I decided to do the same too. Haha. The weather is so hot man. I take a long time to sleep at night because it's hot. And I cannot study either. No mood. It's really too hot.

PANAS LAR. SOMEONE DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT HOT HOT WEATHER.

Sad case. Stupid update. I'm typing this crap while watching Spongebob. This is boring. T.T

Till next time. 7:07 PM

Indeed, time is the best medicine for any internal bleedings. (Not literally, though). Finally, I think it's about a month now since that emo thing happened to me. Well. Finally I can smile again. Finally I'm healed. And finally I'm able to forgive her.

Here I wanna thank my friends. Seriously, if you guys weren't there for me, I would have collapsed like, real badly. Here I'm thanking Shu-Li, Woon Khai, Suz, Wen Di, Sook Wei, Kim Yap...Especially Woon Khai. Seriously, THANK YOU DADDY!!! Thank you for being there and being crazy when I need you. Thank you for saving me from myself.

And to two someones, I'm glad you guys are back by my side again. :)

Exam is boring me out~~~ =.=

Till next time~! 11:37 PM

Yes, I am very well aware that I have not updated for a LONG time. I have been busy for that much time. I'm still busy, but I think I better just leave a (hopefully) short note here before I go on with my life.

Many many things happened to me within this period of silence. I have changed...naturally. I have faced failures, criticism, hurt, and sleepless nights. Crap, I know I said I'm trying to make an un-emo blog exist, but apparently it's not easy.

Well. There's one thing I want to highlight. I don't know why but recently many of the things/people I cared about, who made me so happy before, start to make me hurt and sad. Especially one person. That person meant the world to me. And now, all is gone. The hurt has begun.

Ok, this is not meant to be an emo post. One more thing has begun: My reign of JTM. JTMs, if you guys are reading this...WE SHALL ROCK ON!! Haha...

And although the stress has begun as well, you all know that I enjoy being busy. So I deal. And then exam period is beginning too.

Things are beginning all the time. Therefore, maybe you haven't noticed, I have left "it has begun" as my MSN display name for quite some time. It always applies.

For example, right now, I'm beginning a new life. Yes, I cut my hair for this purpose. For fun is another reason la. XP What lead to this rather bad haircut? (my hair doesn't listen to me at all =.=) I will simplify the answer to this: Her.

Well, my long period of silence is about to begin as well. I probably won't blog anymore unless I have time. I probably will after I graduate but that will have to wait. So. To my blogs' readers. Thank you for reading. See you in a while~~

P.S. By the way, prefects' annual dinner ROCKED. It's fun being the model for lucky draw. Let's do it again! XP
P.S.. It's real fun playing alto sax (although I don't know how to). Haha. I played it in my primary school. Jing Hui says I look very yeng. Do you agree?



Till next time, people. :) 10:52 PM

Scratch that. It's just begun.

^^ 10:38 PM

Thanks to Jung Hao, I'm currently addicted to IQ tests. They're kinda fun, in a way, and they wake me up. Here's one I took recently...

Free-IQTest.net - Online IQ Test
This one is quite easy, can go and try. Haha~
Till next time. 8:38 PM

I'm a couple of days late, but the brilliance will not fade.

Concert was AWESOME!

Haha. I had fun and most of us (those who weren't exhausted anyway) were absolutely HIGH after the evening concert. Lots of photos were taken. I was real happy too because of two people: Gabriel and Yee Shuain. Especially Yee Shuain. I'm just really thrilled because of what she said. ^^

What Tim Goh said was amusing too. (Quote Tim: Head, head, head, head, head, BUTT, head... hehe) Anyway, not gonna dwell on the details as usual, but all I can say is, I had fun and I'm really sad that it's over. I miss it already and I'm really reluctant to return to my life. Oh, and btw, SMT ROCK ON!!! Haha. In our own hearts we're the awesome-est department, and I'm always proud of my hard work (the slides). ^^

Next.

I'm a couple of weeks late, but the pain and hurt has not faded.

You guys know what I'm talking about. I would just say this: I'm very disappointed and hurt that WHAT I LOVE MOST WOULD BECOME THE LIMITING FACTOR FOR WHAT I WANT MOST.

After that day I realized why I joined in the first place.

I found my home, my TRUE SECOND HOME, in BAND.

I will never leave my band.

But why am I staying hanging in this stressful and tiring position? Simple.

Because of a promise.

A silent, unknown promise to a senior that means a lot to me but doesn't know she means a lot to me. She was my first source of motivation, the reason I've hung on for so long, and one of the only reasons I'm hanging on now.

The other reasons are my true friends which I've made eventually, through these years. Shu-Li, Tian Yoon, Daddy, LK, Drew, Yi Kun, Nick, double Tims, Ken, Zhi Yeong, Chang Yi, Amy...etc. I'm afraid of missing some out so I better stop here. My point is, there's not much left for me here. I was reluctant to come back. I feel like leaving. I wish you guys would just make me leave. But I'm staying. Cause of her-Yee Shuain, and all my good friends.

Topic change.

Happy belated birthday, Ken.

I LOVE MY BAND.

This love, the intensity of it...

WILL NEVER FADE.

Till next time yo~ 10:25 PM